RELATED: Holly Madison Says Anyone Moving into the Playboy Mansion Had to Do This. “I think I was drawn to try to be in spotlight because I felt like, if I could be famous, that could be a shortcut to feeling a connection with people. Because we feel connected to celebrities,” she said in Secrets of Playboy (via People). She said she was inspired by Anna Nicole Smith, Jenny McCarthy, and Pamela Anderson, who were all major mainstream stars at the time. “The common denominator was they all started out as Playmates. It made a lot of sense to infer that if I start out at Playboy, I could end up like that too, because they did.” Once Madison was fully immersed in Playboy Mansion life, she became Hefner’s “main girlfriend” and continued to stay there, even though she didn’t like it. “I felt like I was in this cycle of gross things and I didn’t know what to do,” she said in the docuseries. “I think I definitely thought I was in love with Hef but it was very Stockholm syndrome, very Stockholm syndrome,” she said in the docuseries. “So Stockholm syndrome is when somebody starts to identify with somebody who’s their captor in some way and I feel like I did that with Hef 100 percent.” She also called the environment “cult-like,” and explained, “The reason I think the mansion was very cult-like is because we were all kind of gaslit and expected to think of Hef as like this really good guy.” In the docuseries, Madison said that Hefner “screamed” at her for cutting her hair, and fellow Girls Next Door star Bridget Marquardt said that Hefner was particularly “abrasive” with Madison. She also said she had a 9 p.m. curfew, wasn’t encouraged to have friends over, and was told to quit her waitressing job. Madison explained that one major reason she felt she couldn’t leave the mansion was because Hefner had explicit photos of her and she feared that they would be released. “When you would go out with Hef, he’s taking all kinds of naked pictures of these women when we’re wasted out of our minds. And he would print out like eight copies for him and all the women, you pass them around. It was just gross,” she claimed. She said this was “always lingering in the back of [her] mind.” For more celebrity news delivered right to your inbox, sign up for our daily newsletter. While appearing on the podcast Power: Hugh Hefner in December 2021, Madison called the photos Hefner had of her and other women “not consensual”. “I don’t know if he just assumed that was okay because all these women want to be in the magazine so bad. ‘They must be okay with getting naked, so I’m going to take pictures while they’re wasted and just hand those pictures out,’” she said (via Cosmopolitan UK). “That’s the kind of thing that can make you feel stuck in a situation or over-invested. It’s one of those things that makes you feel a little more backed into a corner.” Madison said that being on The Girls Next Door boosted her confidence and gave her a purpose in staying at the mansion. And around the time the show ended, she thought things would change in her relationship with Hefner. “In 2008, my last year there, the other girls were leaving. It looked like it was just going to be me. I finally thought I got what I wanted out of this situation, and was finally like this committed relationship. But during that time period, he started getting even meaner,” she said. “At that point, there were no women to pit me against, there was none of that left,” she continued. “And that’s when I had the realization, and I was like ‘Whoa he’s been the problem the whole time.’ I had been locked into the mentality of the mansion, and had felt like there’s no other future for me outside. But I finally saw him for who he was and I had to go.“ae0fcc31ae342fd3a1346ebb1f342fcb Hefner died in 2017 at age 91, and his family is no longer associated with Playboy, which the brand made clear in an open letter ahead of the Secrets of Playboy premiere. “First and foremost, we want to say: we trust and validate women and their stories, and we strongly support the individuals who have come forward to share their experiences,” the letter reads in part. “As you know, the Hefner family is no longer associated with Playboy, and today’s Playboy is not Hugh Hefner’s Playboy.” RELATED: See the Photo of Holly Madison as a Playboy Bunny That “Terrified” Her.
